Dear God....

Dear God, Please be with Jenny today during her first surgery. Please give her body the strength it needs to fight this battle. Please keep her mind peaceful. Reach down and surround her with your presence. Lord please keep her safe and protected. Be with the surgeons today Lord. Give them the knowledge to help heal her. Please steady and guide their hands. Lord, please be with my family. Give them the reassurance they need. Please lord keep our minds stress free. Please fill our minds with positive thoughts. Shower us with your presence to give us the comfort we so desperately need. We trust you, and know this is all in your hands now. We have faith. Amen












Today Jen goes into her first surgery. Yesterday she battled fever all day. It was as high as 103. They had given her all the Tylenol she could have, so they had to ice her down. They have been able to keep her fever down with the ice. Thank God! Yesterday when the nurse came in to suction her throat because of the smoke ventilation and her pneumonia She grabbed Aunt Patty's hand. They no longer have her sedated at all. She is just on pain medicine. But she still won't wake up. She is still jerking or moving like she is uncomfortable. But when she actually squeezed aunt Patty's hand it gave us a big leap of hope. Today they are doing her first skin graph. They will be taking some skin from her thigh, and placing it on her left arm. They are also going to cut her on the same place they cut her when they had to repair her bladder. They want to go in and "just look around." ??? I don't know if I Like the sound of that. It makes me ask why do they want to do that. But they are the specialists not me. I have to keep my mind on positive thoughts!! Every time I think of Jen, the holidays automatically come to my mind. Christmas especially. I remember the year we got Talan his Diego jeep. It was his second Christmas. Jenny, John and I stayed up all night trying to put everything together. Jenny and I put the jeep together. Jenny put the stickers on.....upside down. lol. We also had to put his train table together. More stickers. lol. Afterwards we had to go to cvs to get stuff for moms stocking, because we had waited to the very last minute to do it. Jenny made every little insignificant even fun and memorable. She is so magnetic. People are just attracted to her outgoing personality, and her out of this world energy. The thing that gets me is, even out of everything she has been through these last two years she has fought her way through coming out on top knowing exactly who she is. She just has that survival instinct in her. I know she can do this. There is no doubt in my mind. It's whether I can watch her do it that i question. I don't want to show any weakness to her what so ever. She needs us to be strong. I must admit that although I've dealt with death before, even that doesn't compare to how i feel now. I have lost 3 grandparents, aunts and uncles and in none of those situations did I feel as devastated as I do now. Maybe because in all those other instances I had time to prepare myself. I couldn't see the hurt they had. It was internally. Maybe it's the fact that now I'm a mother and I know the true value of life. Or maybe it's just the fact that Jenny has left a huge mark on my life that i didn't see until now. Seeing her pain, is tearing me apart piece by piece. But i have to tell myself to think positive....Think positive. I remember when I was pregnant and Jenny worked at the sun glass hut in market street. John and I went to see her on lunch. We walked around looking and all got smoothies. I remember her excitement over the baby coming. I remember her huge genuine smile that is so contagious. This is the way I will always think of her. Her magnetic personality, her contagious smile, her larger than life energy, and her strength to over come any obstacle no matter how big or small. I hope everyone else will think of her like this to. All those things are what makes Jenny, Jenny!


I will update after she is out of surgery, I have seen her, and we hear from the doctors. I send love to everyone taking their time to follow jenny's progress, and take time to pray for her. Remember I am expecting a miracle, nothing less.





We were thinking of having some bracelets made that could be bought for $1, that will go to her medical expenses. We are trying to come up with a short little quote or something to put on them....If you have any ideas send them our way.