Friday, December 25, 2009
A long Post....Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas to all my Jenny's Angels. I hope everyone has had a happy holiday with your family and friends.
Ok, Jenny is awake and coherent. She doesn't say strange things so often anymore. She is aware of everything now. She has been moved to a Triumph hospital downtown. It is a long term hospital. She is there because of her stomach wound. There are pros and cons to her being there. Mom has a fold up bed in her room, so she'll be able to stay the night with her. I think she is going to start traveling back and forth at a couple days at a time, that way she won't have to live at the hotel. (not that she isn't appreciative for it.) This hospital is great for getting people well and out of there. Now the con. The staff is a little rougher than the staff at Memorial Herman. I guess the staff has to push the patients to get them better, but Jenny is very stressed right now and fragile. Plus, she's our Jenny and of course we want her to have the best care possible. I got to decorate her room for her. She hasn't seen it yet. She is still in a temporary room. They will be moving her later today. She is allowed visitors, and noone has to dress up like at the hospital. Jenny does not want visitors yet, this is coming directly from her mouth.
When she woke up she was asking mom a lot of questions. She asked if she hurt anyone. She asked how long she had been asleep. She was amazed when we told her over 40 days. She told us she was sorry for ruining christmas. We told her she didn't ruin it, she made it complete because she was still with us and awake. She asked how everyone was feeling emotionaly about her accident. We told her we were scared we were going to loose her, and we were sad because she hurt. She said she was sorry for putting us all through that. Mom told her she didn't have to appologize for anything, she did nothing wrong. She looked at her arm and said it was ugly. Mom told her no it's not, it's not done healing. she looked at her other arm and said "it's only one arm? Man that was lucky." That made me happy that she was looking on the bright side. She asked if she got a tatoo on her stomach. lol. We told her no, and explained what happened. She is kind of able to see her wound, but can't completely see it because she isn't really sitting up right now. They have no bandage on her stomach, no gause, nothing. It needs to air for a couple of days. As soon as she starts eating food she can have her all the tubes in her nose taken out. Right now she doesn't feel like eating, but that's because the medicine she is taking makes it hurt if you don't eat with it. She had all her Iv's out, until last night. They had to start giving her antibiodics through the IV because it would upset her stomach more if they gave it to her oraly. but hey one IV is still good to me. She is dehydrated so they are having a hard time getting it in, and getting it to stay. She is very blunt right now. If you're bothering her, she tells you. She told us straight up she doesn't want visitors. I think that is because she is worried about the way she looks. She hasn't asked for a mirror to see her face. She doesn't have on her glasses to actually see everything with good vision. That is probably a good thing though, because her wounds are still in the recovery process and are going to look a lot better when they are completely healed than they do now. She asks about Talan a lot. She gets really emotional though. I told her everytime we pray before we eat we say this prayer.....
"God is good. God is great. Let us bless him for this food, and God bless Jenny's boo boos. And thank you for our daily bread. Amen."
The shipment of bracelets have come in. So the people who are waiting for them...they are on their way. I am sorry it took this long to get here.
NOW MY BENEFIT COOK-OFF IDEA
I have an idea I want everyone's opinion on. Well, I'm going to do it no matter what, so I guess I'm asking for everyone's help. I am putting together a Benefit Cook-Off for Jenny. The University of Pheonix (the campus in the woodlands off Rayford/sawdust) is in the process of getting it approved to have it there in the parking lot. Here is my vision for it. Of course we would have food. Bar B Que, hamburgers, hotdogs...etc. Each plate and drink would be like 7 dollars. Then we would have a table set up to sell all of the Jenny's Angels Gear. Her bracelets, the stickers that are being made, and these bottle cap necklaces I am having made. I am going to post pictures of them. They are super cute. I would also pre order some shirts to be sold too. Then there would be an art table set up. Everyone ,including the kids, could make a card or poster for Jenny. We would have glitter, and paper and sciccors and all that good stuff to make everything look pretty. I wouldn't charge for that of course. Next, I was thinking that I could get people to donate some baked goods. Like cakes, cookies, brownies, special food you make and sell it at another table. I also thought that I could get people to donate stuff for raffle baskets. If I didn't get enough stuff for that I would just put some together myself. I have a couple different basket Ideas.
A Wine basket one that would have a bottle of wine with two wine glasses, a wine opener, and maybe some kind of dessert in it.
A Jenny's Angels basket that would have one of every Jenny's Angels gear we have.
A movie baset that would have a couple of movies with some popcorn, and candy, and maybe a movie gift card in it.
A coffee basket that would have a variety of coffees, some mugs, and something like muffins in them.
A hair product basket, that would just have a bunch of hair products in it, and some beauty products in it with it.
A candle basket with different candles and candle holders and lighters and stuff that goes with that.
We would sell raffle tickets, and everyone could buy as many as they wanted and put them in the drawing for what ever basket they wanted or as many as they wanted.
And lastly I would rent tables for 50 dollars to people who wanted to sell things. For instance if you have your own jewelry business, you can sell your jewelry, or candles or whatever it is you want to sell.
Every cent made will go in Jenny's benefit fund for her medical expenses, and for her futre plastic surgery she will need.
Now this is the part I need help. I am asking everyone to pull their connects to help me with a couple things. I need help getting food. Really anything will do. I need people to donate bakery items like I listed above. I need donations for the raffle baskets. Anything, even if it's not for one of the ones listed above, those were just some suggestions. I need drink donations. And I need anyone with a connection to a local band, radio station (would be amazing), or that has a sound system with a mic. (I could just hook up the radio lol). I also need volunteers to help work each table with me. I am shooting to have this event on February 6th. I need all the help I can get. So please everyone help me. I am going to need a lot of help on this. Even if it's just baking a cake, or helping me make flyers. This is going to be a huge project. Also please help me with donations. Pass the blog link to everyone you know and ask everyone you know for help. she is going to need this money for her plastic surgeries in the future, as well as therapy after she is home.
If you have any suggestions on anything let me know. I have never done anything like this before, so I need all the help I can get. At this point I am begging. Please call me with any ideas, donations, or info you have for me. 832 813 9669 or lindznbrooks@yahoo.com.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
"love is the best medicine so drink it up Jenny"
I know it has been a while since I've updated. I'm sorry about that. I haven't been up to see her a lot lately, because John has been working so much in Brenham. I saw Jenny today. It was a rough day for her. She hasn't been resting well. Today she was finally settling down and then the physical therapist came in to work with her. Jenny was irritated. The therapist was trying to get her to move her left arm up and down and get her to make a fist with her left hand. Jenny was kind of out of it. She was telling the therapist things like "There have been 5 people in here today messing with me. Come back when I am awake, not now. I can do it, I don't need to show you I can. My friends come in here and do that, I don't need you to do it. This isn't your house get out and leave me alone. Why are you doing this to me? Why?" None of that was true. She hadn't ran fever, and no other therapist had been in messing with her. She really doesn't have any sense of time though. she told me today she had been in the hospital for 4 days. She also told me to guard and lock that f***ing door so that crazy lady couldn't come harass her again. She wanted me to get scissors and cut those dang things off. (her tubes and the things that hold them in). She has this thing that is like a breathing treatment that goes on her trachea tube that keeps her throat moisturized. she wanted me to cut "her necklace off". lol. After she settled down I sat by her and held her hand and told her I locked her door and put something in the way to keep that "crazy lady" out, that calmed her down a lot. She rested well after that. I know she probably does have so many people coming in and out, giving her medicine and changing her bandages, and sheets. People giving her baths and tending to her. I know she is tired. We really didn't talk about much else. Since she isn't exactly ....um coherent I guess, she says some funny things.
When the therapist was in there and she was saying she was just tired and it hurt, I had to step out. It was hard to see her actually have to go through something physical, and to hear her tell us how tired she was and how much it hurt. Each day is a new day, and it varies day to day. But I will tell everyone this, she watches and listens for her door like a hawk. She does not like her angels at the hospital right now. One day she is going to look back and thank them so much for this!!! I can picture her now walking into the hospital with a smile on her face to thank each nurse and doctor who helped save her life, and make it normal again.
She told John she wanted him to climb in bed with her today. I think once she is rested and a little more aware of everything she will definitely want visitors. Right now she is just so tired and wants to rest. She wants to just be left alone by everyone. She is saying a lot of things she doesn't mean to the people around her because she is hurting and tired and, well, grumpy right now. We all know she doesn't mean them, but I know it would be hard for some of y'all since you haven't seen her and then for some of the first things that come out of her mouth to be "mean". We still have no time frame on when she will be out of the hospital or what the next steps are. They have her mask for her face. They make every burn patient wear one. I am not quite sure what it does, something for her skin I'm sure. She told me today they make her wear it all day. They aren't really treating any burns anymore, just her legs where they are still doing the skin graphs from. And of course her stomach. she was coughing today and it didn't seem to bother her as much as it did before. Day by day she is improving, even if it's inch by inch. I am ready for her to be whole again. And by that I mean inside and out. I was organizing her E greetings today and reading them as I went and one of them had this Quote in it "love is the best medicine, so drink it in Jenny." I thought it was a perfect saying. I am sure I will see Jenny a lot this week, so I will be sure to update every time I see her or hear something new.
Thank you for all of your support, donations, prayers, letters, cards, and everything everyone has done for Jenny and my family. I am still in the process of sending out thank you cards.
We have ordered a shipment of bracelets for the University of Phoenix team a while ago. They still have not come in. As soon as they do we will be delivering them to everyone that ordered one at the Christmas breakfast that day. Also if anyone still hasn't gotten one that wants one please just let me know. Also if you want to make a donation to her account just save the deposit slip and I'll send you a bracelet. If you have already deposited money and didn't save it just let me know how much you donated so I can look at the account and I'll send you one too.
Keep fighting Jenny, because we're all right there with you, ( not on the side lines) cheering you on, running this race with you to the finish line. Even if we have to pick you up and carry you.
When the therapist was in there and she was saying she was just tired and it hurt, I had to step out. It was hard to see her actually have to go through something physical, and to hear her tell us how tired she was and how much it hurt. Each day is a new day, and it varies day to day. But I will tell everyone this, she watches and listens for her door like a hawk. She does not like her angels at the hospital right now. One day she is going to look back and thank them so much for this!!! I can picture her now walking into the hospital with a smile on her face to thank each nurse and doctor who helped save her life, and make it normal again.
She told John she wanted him to climb in bed with her today. I think once she is rested and a little more aware of everything she will definitely want visitors. Right now she is just so tired and wants to rest. She wants to just be left alone by everyone. She is saying a lot of things she doesn't mean to the people around her because she is hurting and tired and, well, grumpy right now. We all know she doesn't mean them, but I know it would be hard for some of y'all since you haven't seen her and then for some of the first things that come out of her mouth to be "mean". We still have no time frame on when she will be out of the hospital or what the next steps are. They have her mask for her face. They make every burn patient wear one. I am not quite sure what it does, something for her skin I'm sure. She told me today they make her wear it all day. They aren't really treating any burns anymore, just her legs where they are still doing the skin graphs from. And of course her stomach. she was coughing today and it didn't seem to bother her as much as it did before. Day by day she is improving, even if it's inch by inch. I am ready for her to be whole again. And by that I mean inside and out. I was organizing her E greetings today and reading them as I went and one of them had this Quote in it "love is the best medicine, so drink it in Jenny." I thought it was a perfect saying. I am sure I will see Jenny a lot this week, so I will be sure to update every time I see her or hear something new.
Thank you for all of your support, donations, prayers, letters, cards, and everything everyone has done for Jenny and my family. I am still in the process of sending out thank you cards.
We have ordered a shipment of bracelets for the University of Phoenix team a while ago. They still have not come in. As soon as they do we will be delivering them to everyone that ordered one at the Christmas breakfast that day. Also if anyone still hasn't gotten one that wants one please just let me know. Also if you want to make a donation to her account just save the deposit slip and I'll send you a bracelet. If you have already deposited money and didn't save it just let me know how much you donated so I can look at the account and I'll send you one too.
Keep fighting Jenny, because we're all right there with you, ( not on the side lines) cheering you on, running this race with you to the finish line. Even if we have to pick you up and carry you.
Friday, December 18, 2009
wells Fargo account
We have been having problems with the fund. We have been up there three times. I finally called today and they say it should be corrected soon. I.e. Today or tomorrow. Jenny had the covering that was over her stomach replaced today. It went well. She is not closed up. Her skin and muscles are still open. She just has a piece of pig skin on top to protect the opening from infection and bacteria. Anyways just wanted to let everyone know the good news! I will see Jen today and update more then
Thursday, December 17, 2009
jens talking
They put something in her throat so she can talk. I am so excited to see her and talk to her. I have always told john that she was going to wake up telling him "leave me alone Jonathan" like she always does. She told him he was annoying her. Close enough! Lol she stil doesn't want visitors. We keep asking. I will see her tomorrow and update a longer post! Looking back we have come along way guys!
telling Jen about the accident
Sincee Jenny is awake, we have been slowly telling her what happened. We told her she was in a wreck. We haven't really gone into details about the fire. Her first question was if she hurt anyone else, which is just like Jenny to worry about other people. We are slowly telling her more and more. Yesterday mom but cherry chapstick on her lips and she asked for a lollipop. Lol she has her good days and bad days. She has been more relaxed then the last time. But she is starting to ask more questions now. We asked her about visitors And she told us no. We will keep asking her though. She is coming around more and more but still irritated she can't talk or move because of the restraints. She was trying To use her mouth to unwrap her arm bandages. I think she was trying to see her injury. Anyways that was a short update but I am going to see her tomorrow and will update more then!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Woodlandsonline.com
http://www.woodlandsonline.com/npps/story.cfm?nppage=33748
^^^ That is the link to view Jenny's story. The editor from the woodlands online contacted me and wanted to help. He has written a wonderful story asking for help. Please pass it along to everyone you know. Monday it will be on the main page of the website. I want to thank Chris for all of his help. It's relaxing to know that kind hearted people still exist in this world today. Please everyone take time to read Chris's story. It is beautifully written, and has a pretty picture of our Jenny on it.
Thank you to everyone who has kept Jenny in your thoughts and prayers, for passing on her story, and also for helping by donating or sending cards! Everyone from the Ryan family appreciates it more than you could ever understand!
^^^ That is the link to view Jenny's story. The editor from the woodlands online contacted me and wanted to help. He has written a wonderful story asking for help. Please pass it along to everyone you know. Monday it will be on the main page of the website. I want to thank Chris for all of his help. It's relaxing to know that kind hearted people still exist in this world today. Please everyone take time to read Chris's story. It is beautifully written, and has a pretty picture of our Jenny on it.
Thank you to everyone who has kept Jenny in your thoughts and prayers, for passing on her story, and also for helping by donating or sending cards! Everyone from the Ryan family appreciates it more than you could ever understand!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
jens awake
Today we went and saw Jen. She is awake and irritated. She told mom to leave her the f*** alone lol. She has her hands tied down because she wants the tube in her nose out, and has tried to pull it out! She is fighting the restraints non stop. When we went in to see her john was holding her hand. She was squeezing it. He asked her how she liked the view since her room has an awesome view. She was saying something over and over. It took me a couple seconds but she was saying it freakin hurts. So john asked her it freakin hurts? And she said yes. Because of the trach she can't actually talk. She just mouths us words. John was telling her that talan loves her. And asked if she loved talan, and she said yes. The nurse was giving her some valume to calm down. We told her he was giving her valume to help her, and she told us she didn't want him to give her valume or to touch her and that she wanted to go home. So she is really irritated. We asked her if she wanted visitors. She looked at us like we were absolutely crazy and said no! The nurse said she has been fighting them all day. This might sound completely crazy, but I am relieved. I don't like she is stressed and scared but I am glad she is awake and responsive. I wish she would relax a little but sometimes we can't have everything we want. She kept saying she wants to leave, she wants to go home. She looks at her door a lot. She looks to see who is coming in. The trash people came in and she thought he was a nurse. Her eyes got big. She looks at her left hand a lot. I thinks she is just trying to comPrehend what happened, and what's going on. Her hand is bandaged though. Thank god because I think if she woke up seeing it she would be really stressed. It is looking better and better. She had her right leg out of bed and mom told her to loosen her leg so she could put it back up there and Jen said no. Lol I honestly believe if she was not restrained she would get up, pull those tubes out, and try to leave. My heart breaks for her because I know she just wants to go home. She wants to hug mom so bad. She has made a huge step forward since a week ago. But they also haven't done as much surgery and they have cut her meds way down! I always knew this part was going to be tough. We all just have to be there for her as much as we can wether she let's us or not. Everyone just send her an e greeting. Maybe kind, inspiring words of hope will help her get through this. Her room number is different now. J834 I will write another blog tomorrow after I see her. I hope she is more relaxed. She if fighting hard. It might be against the hospital staff but she's fighting hard lol
Friday, December 11, 2009
moving forwArd! j 834
This won't be a long post but I wanted to shout the good news to the world. Jenny is out of sticu! She is back into the burn unit! She had surgery today on her stomach. They weren't able to close her stomach but they were able to cover it with a skin graph. Also they were able to skin graph her sides which they haven't been able to do yet. This is all a huge leap forward! I will add more later today! Jenny if fighting hard for us! She is in room j 834 now!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Jenny angels stickers
I am happy to say that aunt Brenda is having Jenny angels stickers for car windows made. She has been very kind through all of this. Because Jenny will continue to need multiple surgeries for skin graphs, and therapy, every cent raised will go into her fund for that. So if you wAnt one let me know. I will start taking orders now for them. I am not sure how much they are going to be because I have not seen them yet. But definitely not more than 10 dollars. Jennys angels is just getting bigger and bigger! Yes! Thank you for everyones help. And a huge thanks to aunt Brenda. You have been amazing through all of this. Your support is overwhelming! Jenny is very lucky to have such an amazing person who has stuck by her side through it all. Thank you isn't enough! Jenny is going to be so proud and so thankful.
Expecting a miracle nothing less
Today we got some good news. Jenny is stable, and for the most part done with major surgeries. She of course will have a couple more skin graphs, and they will continue doing cleanings on her stomach, but they are doing it in her room instead of the operating room. So she is able to move out of STICU. She will either be on a long term therapy floor, or back to the burn unit. She is on a morphine drip, and they have to get her off that first. They say everything is moving along like it should though. Her stomach is going to take a long time to heal, like maybe a year. But it is under control. They are able to change the dressing, and wash it out right there in her bed. That is an improvement from HAVING to go to the OR. She doesn't act like her stomach is causing her pain really. She lifts her left arm more, while making a hurt face than anything else. She also opens her eyes really wide and blinks while opening her mouth. I think she does this, not out of pain, but because her face is healing and the skin is tight. When she wakes up I'm going to tell her that if she wanted a microderm abrasion that bad we would've found her a way to get it, she did it the hard way. lol. Her face is amazingly better. I cannot imagine that the nurses in the burn unit were telling us just 7 weeks ago not to put pictures of her up because she will never look like that again. Boy were they wrong. Because of everyones prayers, she is going to look the same, and she IS going to get past this, and be a stronger person that will see how much she has inspired other people, and how big of a difference she has made just by her presence in everyone lives. Something great will come of this. I believe god has a very big plan for Jenny. I am excited to see God work through her. I also can't wait for those stupid nurses to see her again. They were wrong, and I hope they don't discourage the next family that they treat. The next family might not have as much faith, prayers, and support ours does. I have said it from the beginning that I'm expecting a miracle nothing less.
Hopefully, now that she won't have to have surgery so much (a.k.a.-all this medicine) she will wake up a lot more now. She has had anesthesia every other day or so because she has had surgery. I know from experience when I have had surgery that recovering I sleep the rest of the actual day I have surgery, and the next day. Well if she's having surgery every other day how is she ever supposed to be awake? I know these next couple of days are going to be tough when they wing her off the morphine, but I'm excited to see what happens when we get past this point. And good news to everyone, when she wakes up, where she is truly awake and understands, she can decide if she wants visitors. I hope everyone understands why we want her to make this decision. The nurse told us today that she will not remember anything until she wakes up. She won't remember any of STICU, or being in the burn unit. She sleeps. So people coming to see her would be for their benefit not hers. Also with her stomach being open and now having a bacteria infection there, it's best to keep the number of people that come in and out low. We don't want people coming up there just to see what she looks like. I know that might sound harsh, but unfortunately there are people like that. I will look out for my family first and before everyone else. We don't want her to be gauged at. We want her to be comfortable with having people see her, and also who she wants to see her. We are not trying to be mean, or keep people away, but we want her to be ok with every decision we make for her and since we weren't sure we'll let her decide.
So in the next couple of days we have a lot of changes about to happen. I will keep everyone updated every step of the way. I will also let people know her new room number when she gets moved.
God can move mountains, and part seas and he's going to work through Jenny to accomplish something amazing.
Hopefully, now that she won't have to have surgery so much (a.k.a.-all this medicine) she will wake up a lot more now. She has had anesthesia every other day or so because she has had surgery. I know from experience when I have had surgery that recovering I sleep the rest of the actual day I have surgery, and the next day. Well if she's having surgery every other day how is she ever supposed to be awake? I know these next couple of days are going to be tough when they wing her off the morphine, but I'm excited to see what happens when we get past this point. And good news to everyone, when she wakes up, where she is truly awake and understands, she can decide if she wants visitors. I hope everyone understands why we want her to make this decision. The nurse told us today that she will not remember anything until she wakes up. She won't remember any of STICU, or being in the burn unit. She sleeps. So people coming to see her would be for their benefit not hers. Also with her stomach being open and now having a bacteria infection there, it's best to keep the number of people that come in and out low. We don't want people coming up there just to see what she looks like. I know that might sound harsh, but unfortunately there are people like that. I will look out for my family first and before everyone else. We don't want her to be gauged at. We want her to be comfortable with having people see her, and also who she wants to see her. We are not trying to be mean, or keep people away, but we want her to be ok with every decision we make for her and since we weren't sure we'll let her decide.
So in the next couple of days we have a lot of changes about to happen. I will keep everyone updated every step of the way. I will also let people know her new room number when she gets moved.
God can move mountains, and part seas and he's going to work through Jenny to accomplish something amazing.
Monday, December 7, 2009
high expectations
Last night I finally got to see Jenny. I felt like it had been forever. In my head I saw her doing a lot better. I saw her coherent and being more awake. She isn't. It is very upsetting. I know she recognizes us but I don't know if she understands us completely. I don't even know if she knowS she is in the hospital. When we were in there last night she didn't even turn her head to follow us where we walked. You hold her hand and she doesn't squeeze it or anything. She is moving her left hand a lot. They don't have it all wrapped up anymore. It has been 6 weeks so I am guessing the breaks are healed. I honestly think she moves it because it hurts. I don't think its a voluntary motion. Her right side of her head has bead sores because she has favored that side the whole time. Also sometimes she tries to sit up some and tries to pull her feeding tube out of her nose. I don't blame her. Its a big tube and it can't be comfortable. I am not going to lie when I say her left arm looks bad. She has had many surgeries on it. I thought it would be a lot better by now. But her face looks great. I hope that she wakes up being positive, and thankful for the good things and find even the smallest good about the bad things. The doctors are even more sure she had and still has a concussion. They say that its like a bruise it didn't show up right away but the bruise is showing up now. I am ready to have Jenny back but I think its probably best she is not coherent, because she would be stressed out and scared. I know I wouldn't want to be alone. We are at a plateo. She isn't moving backwards but she is just inching forward very slowly. U think its just hard right now because in my head I have a vision or how she should look like, or how well she should be doing and then reality hits me. My expectations are high. I guess even though I have seen how far she has come and I keep thinking she could stay moving at that pace. But most of her recovery now will be slow moving. Its easier for a burn to heal than it is for her mind to wake up and get back to normal especially with all the medicine she has had. I didn't expect everything to take this long. I was hoping it wouldn't take this long. Last night I just say and held her hand and watched TV. She was just sleeping after the first few minutes. She has surgery on her arm again with the plastic surgeon. I know she recognized us because she was crying when john talked to her and told her he loved her. It was really emotional. Its really hard seeing john upset. All of this is hard. When I see Jen I know I need to be strong so I just try to talk to her about anything. I don't cry anymore because I don't want her to get stressed. Its a lot easier to see her with mom. I feed off her strength. She makes me feel at ease when I am visiting Jen. She knows all about what's going on, what's normal behavior for her, what every tube is, and every nurse. I wish I had more to say, or really good news to report but right now that's it.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Feeling a little down in the dumps
Yesterday Jen had a skin graph done on her arm by the plastic surgeon. The nurse told mom that when she got back from surgery she was doing all of her dressings. The nurse said she was talking to Jenny to calm her down a little bit, since she was actually awake. I guess usually she's still asleep when she comes back from surgery. The nurse was talking to Jen about Lady Ga Ga (a famous pop singer). I have torn out every picture I find in magazines and put them in her room for her. The nurse was asking Jen if she liked her. Jen shook her head. The nurse told mom that it seems to relax her a little when she talks to her. That doesn't surprise me at all. Jenny loves to talk. She is going to be a really good listener by the time this is all over. lol. By the time mom got in there she was asleep from her pain medicine. Today she had another cleaning of her stomach. When mom went in there today she was having to have more blood, and she was just looking pale and like she didn't feel to well. It's almost been a week since I've seen her. I can't wait to get up there this weekend. I hope since she doesn't have any surgery that she will be awake. She missed the snow today. Mom said that it snowed a lot by the hospital. Well a lot for us.
I can't imagine what mom is feeling right now, because I'm completely exhausted. I am just drained emotionally from everything. But on a good note, The University of Phoenix's public relations lady contacted me yesterday. They want to send a letter to all of the students Jenny enrolled informing them of what Jenny is going through. They want to help raise money for her recovery. They also want to tell her story to some of the news papers asking their help too. This is great news for Jenny. She is going to need a lot of physical therapy, and some plastic surgery. She is going to need a lot of physical therapy to basically learn how to do everything again. She has been in bed so long, I can't imagine what walking is going to be like. Her brain was in "sleep mode" for so long, just getting those essential motor skills back is going to require some time and probably help. Her left arm is going to need a lot of therapy because of it's injuries. I don't know if everyone realizes how hard every day things are going to be for her because of the injuries her stomach has. When I had Talan I had a c-section. It hurt to get out of bed so bad after that. And to just sit hurt unbearable, because you use your stomach muscles to help you ease down. You use those muscles to use the restroom, to laugh, to cough, to sneeze, to lift anything, to bend over, basically to do everything. The worst was laughing. The first time I laughed I literally cried. Having a c-section is nothing compared to what she has had. That is going to be the hardest injury she has to recovery from. I just can't imagine right now. I wish I could take her pain and transfer it to me. Or if everyone could just split it up between us all. That would be so awesome. I honestly feel that being in pain would be easier than seeing her in pain, especially the emotional pain I know is just around the corner. I feel in my heart I just need to be there with her right now. I don't feel there is anything else right now I should be doing besides being there with her and mom. Honestly I am not excited for Christmas this year at all. I am not ready to celebrate this family holiday in a hotel, while Jenny is in the hospital, and be in such a good mood. I want to just postpone it. Maybe we can just leave our Christmas lights up, skip Christmas. We'll just keep telling Talan it's almost Christmas time, and then when she gets out we'll have Christmas. We'll leave the tree up and the presents up. How is it possible to celebrate Christmas in a situation like this? It's not fair, I don't want to do it, and I'm not excited it's just around the corner. The only reason we can't postpone it Talan. I know it's not fair to him, he's too little to understand. But it just isn't going to feel right. I'm going to have to wrap presents by myself this year I haven't had to do that in over four years. She's my wrapping Buddy.
I can't imagine what mom is feeling right now, because I'm completely exhausted. I am just drained emotionally from everything. But on a good note, The University of Phoenix's public relations lady contacted me yesterday. They want to send a letter to all of the students Jenny enrolled informing them of what Jenny is going through. They want to help raise money for her recovery. They also want to tell her story to some of the news papers asking their help too. This is great news for Jenny. She is going to need a lot of physical therapy, and some plastic surgery. She is going to need a lot of physical therapy to basically learn how to do everything again. She has been in bed so long, I can't imagine what walking is going to be like. Her brain was in "sleep mode" for so long, just getting those essential motor skills back is going to require some time and probably help. Her left arm is going to need a lot of therapy because of it's injuries. I don't know if everyone realizes how hard every day things are going to be for her because of the injuries her stomach has. When I had Talan I had a c-section. It hurt to get out of bed so bad after that. And to just sit hurt unbearable, because you use your stomach muscles to help you ease down. You use those muscles to use the restroom, to laugh, to cough, to sneeze, to lift anything, to bend over, basically to do everything. The worst was laughing. The first time I laughed I literally cried. Having a c-section is nothing compared to what she has had. That is going to be the hardest injury she has to recovery from. I just can't imagine right now. I wish I could take her pain and transfer it to me. Or if everyone could just split it up between us all. That would be so awesome. I honestly feel that being in pain would be easier than seeing her in pain, especially the emotional pain I know is just around the corner. I feel in my heart I just need to be there with her right now. I don't feel there is anything else right now I should be doing besides being there with her and mom. Honestly I am not excited for Christmas this year at all. I am not ready to celebrate this family holiday in a hotel, while Jenny is in the hospital, and be in such a good mood. I want to just postpone it. Maybe we can just leave our Christmas lights up, skip Christmas. We'll just keep telling Talan it's almost Christmas time, and then when she gets out we'll have Christmas. We'll leave the tree up and the presents up. How is it possible to celebrate Christmas in a situation like this? It's not fair, I don't want to do it, and I'm not excited it's just around the corner. The only reason we can't postpone it Talan. I know it's not fair to him, he's too little to understand. But it just isn't going to feel right. I'm going to have to wrap presents by myself this year I haven't had to do that in over four years. She's my wrapping Buddy.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Jenny to mom>>>i love you!
Today Jenny mouthed "I love you" twice to mom! I heard this and pure jot, hope, and love shot through my body! We are slowly getting our Jenny back. The bond a mother has with their child is amazing. And mom has been by Jenny's side every day. She has put her life on hold for Jen. Her days are filled with dressing in gowns and gloves, watered down coffee, and expensive cafeteria food. She has sat by daughter through every crisis, every surgery, every bad day, and every good day. She hasn't been able to touch her daughter without a glove on in over a month. She sat by her side in her room after every surgery, even though they had to heat her room to extreme heat. She sat there sweating, burning up with that plastic gown and gloves on. She never once has complained about doing it, or the fact that her stomach is in knots every day from stress. She tells me, I have to deal with it and not complain look at what Jenny is going through. She has been supportive, encouraging, and more than I have seen from any other mom before. She has watched over ever tube they put in, every medicine injected, and ever bandage changed. This women has been more than incredible. I am very blessed to have such an inspiring women to take notes from. She has blown me out of this water. Jenny is very lucky to have had her growing up and especially during this time in her life. Jenny I love you. Mom you have amazed me and surpassed every expectation I have had for any mother in your situation. I love you. Thank you for being such a great mother, and such a great teacher for me to learn from. You have given me strength through all of this.
Correction to my last blog
Ok I guess I need to explain my husband. He has ADD. You could be at the same place as him watching the exact movie and his version of what happened would be completely different. lol That's why I love him. He shows me life from a different point of view. I personally talked to mom today. Yesterday they did not get her closed up. They did remove the bag that was over her open stomach. They placed pig skin to try to help her cells grow. She is still too swolen to close up. also her colone isn't working at 100% because it is so swolen. They were putting medicine into her stomach, but that isn't helping because she isn't digesting everything properly due to the swolen colone. Everything will be going into her IV from now on. The doctor also asked mom about jens pain. Mom told her she was hurting. I'm sure part is to be blamed for them putting medicine into her stomach and it never being ran completely through her body because of her Colone. They are going to up her pain medicine. They are saying they don't want to give her too much because then she becomes used to the dose and they just have to keep giving her more and more. They are scared she will become addicted later on.but From now on it will be given in her IV not orally. They are going to continue doing the cleanings on her stomach and replacing the pigs skin to help her start to grow new skin. She has surgery today with the plastic surgeon. They weren't able to work on her arm yesterday. Today the plastic surgeon is doing a skin graph on her left arm.
I just wanted to correct the last blog for everyone. And from now on I will be talking directly to my mom not through my husband who obviously has selective hearing lol.
I just wanted to correct the last blog for everyone. And from now on I will be talking directly to my mom not through my husband who obviously has selective hearing lol.
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